Just some random thoughts for the night that lead me here writing my thoughts out…
I'm currently working / having like a short term internship and in my life right now all i see is people between the age of 20-50 doing the same thing, same routine, same shit every single day…
It makes me wonder. Do we have to do this or whatever we've been doing for the rest of our life? Or getting stuck with an office job from 9-630 everyday.. doing the same thing, facing the same computer screen?
In my head, I talk to myself, thank god i know that i am not going to do this for the rest of my life. I'm not saying that working in the office is bad, or having an office job is bad… but however all i felt that most of us are just working for the sake of working, working for the sake of the money, for the sake of living and for the sake that we'll want to survive here and we'll want to survive through.
It's sad how most of us or most of the people couldn't choose what they really love to do, or choose what to pursue in their life. I used to really felt lost about myself and about me. I was lost to a point that I got so depressed and all i thought was giving up. But in my life, I don't wanna choose to just live a life doing things for the sake of doing. I wanna enjoy my life. I wanna enjoy this life, and i wanna do and definitely to pursue what I love. Yes as many know, I'm a kind of a realistic person. I look at things in a realistic way, however that doesn't stop me from dreaming, that doesn't stop me from wanting to pursue my dream. I often question everyone around me, who are usually a few years older than me, what do you intend to do? what are your plans? 70% of the people will answer me with this, " I don't know. "
Many of us here just pursue our studies in order to get a stable job, a stable pay, everything that keeps you stable and you get stuck in something you don't like for so long. I feel suffocated. I want to pursue what I really love and do what I love. I don't want to answer my life with answers like, I don't know. What if? But then… and so on and forth.
I'm hoping and praying that everything will go smoothly and go in my way. I've made too much bad decisions in life that I've to suffer from the consequences now.
But I'm always believing that. There'll always be good days. There'll always be better days ahead.
If you are willing to work hard, willing to work your ass off for what you love.