Outfit; 

Top & Skirt from Bangkok

Shoes from shoplastbusride.com

Necklace from h&m 

I've so much going through my head and if someone come close to figure out what are all my thoughts, I might make someone cry. Don't really know what's going on with me lately, but I've been thinking a lot about things. 

It's not that I'm all upset and all now. I'm okay, I'm fine, I'm in a good state. It's just that so much have happened made me think. I'm always terrified about allowing people into my life again and telling myself that, ' they might be different '. I'm not just talking about relationship, I mean like friendships and too... I don't wanna let someone in and grow so attached to them, and when they leave, I'm left with nothing. The feeling when you felt you lost the world, the feeling of lost when you felt like you're trapped in a maze. I was stuck in that state for a while. And during that period I was bad. I went drinking almost every weekend thinking that I could forget, but instead it makes me think more and makes me dwell in the past more. I was that bad that I was always crying. And during that period, I wasn't really in a good shape. All I want to do is to seek comfort, and feel a little better about me. And what really pulled me up from the whole mess up situation was, I felt like I had enough. Enough of the crying, enough of feeling all mess up, enough of getting drunk all upset and don't even know what I can do about myself. I woke up one day telling myself that this shouldn't be the way. I shouldn't be dreading everyday of my life because I'm afraid to face all the problems I have in my life. I woke up one day, telling myself it's time to face it. Learn to accept things. I had a very very very tough and rough period during that whole time. I lost someone that I was v close with, lost friends that I kept so close to my heart. But all this kind of woke me up. It made me learnt from the mistakes I've made, the way I make people feel about them, the way I handle my problems. I did quite a bit of reflection on myself and I told myself this, ' I'll never repeat all those mistakes I did way before that. I'll never repeat mistakes that will allow myself to sink deeper, I'll never repeat mistakes that will stab myself in the heart again. ' 

But it's ironic again, I'm a human. I wanna be loved too. I don't wanna just shut my doors because of my past that made me scared and terrified. I don't wanna just ignore the world because it made me felt so terrible before. I want to believe that this is still a beautiful place and there's still many things that I can have faith in. I'm still learning. Learning about the process to overcome boundaries, the boundaries I had with allowing people in. 

Outfit,

Crochet Tube Top From www.shoplastbusride.com

Hologram Skirt from Bangkok

Shoes from www.shoplastbusride.com

Clutch from Bangkok

So this was my Saturday last week, 

went over to Jon's 21st birthday party

 and manage to catch up with a few friends that haven't met for a long time!! 

And the theme of the party was actually futuristic but however my friends were all dressed in like florals and casual :( oh well but i guess i did tried my best to follow the theme? 

It's finally thursday!!

 One more day to friday and one more draggy long day of school, 

can't wait for the weekends to come already!!

I've been pretty excited for what 2014 have for me... because I'm going to graduate from school in 2 months' time... and time passes so fast :( 

Can't wait to go on a vacation after my graduation! 

till then, x

Wearing; 

Zara sleeveless top in white from shoplastbusride

Sandra Skater Skorts from shoplastbusride

Gold Clutch from Bkk

Bracelet from Balenciaga

Shoes from Overseas 

It's been a long while since I updated the site with an outfit post! How's everyone been doing? 2014 have been good for me! At least now I'm on the right path right state of mind of things and I'm happy. Happy about everything I've, and everything that I don't deserve to have. I'm thankful. The only way of achieving happiness is to make a decision to be happy. And I've learnt about that while struggling with so many issues. Finally, I let myself go, allowing myself to be happy. Have a nice week everyone! 

This was my weekday with the girls! People that I'm really comfortable with and that day we just spent hours talking about things in life and things we fear about while we're growing up. Time passes way too fast than we can expect, I still could remember all the times when we 3 are still fooling around in secondary school and right now we've already left school for such a long time. Thank you for always being there girls!