I felt like I'm losing myself again, going back to who I was in the past... Where I allow insecurities and sadness to come into me... Allowing sadness to consume me. I feel so scared, so afraid, I don't know what to do or what to say to make me feel better... Feel good again. It's just those mistakes that gave me phobias. I used to be so stubborn. So tough, so strong. But I allowed, I let it in to me again. Hence, the wall was torn down... Once again. There's nothing else blocked. And once you lose a part of it, you lose everything. You lose yourself too...


I'm so scared. So afraid. I wanna get away. And feel numbed again.